So much for my happy ending

Natasha — Wed, 24 Mar 2010 02:31:22 +0000

why is it so hard to be happy but get sad so easily……..

This is a torture. nothing about my results here.

my results……………. FAINT

1st year GPA: 2.667

How bad!!

No A some more!! D+ adelahhh!

-.-

must punish myself!! must must must!!! I’ll think of ways to give myself a lesson to learn… until i get A for most modules!

Natasha — Mon, 22 Mar 2010 06:47:55 +0000

How long will this take? No one understand. I don’t know why I feel this way.. How long must i stay like this?

Year 1, I’m done with you!

Natasha — Sun, 28 Feb 2010 01:37:49 +0000

Now waiting for results on the 23rd of march. can’t wait!!!!19 April start school.

Year 2

Year 3

Graduation

University!!!

Get a good high income job!!!

then… I’ll go where my feet takes me to haha

for now, I’ll just live my life, together with the joy and unhappiness around me

just live your life

Natasha — Fri, 19 Feb 2010 01:18:22 +0000

Management is too much. You are too much. Why must I memorize and know so much about you???I’m not interested in you. HAHA.

Sigh. Exams stars today and now I still have the time to blog. =) Yes. Cos I have studied so much already and I need my break. Seriously, I am so damn tired and I can’t wait for exams to end. Everyday, my seat where I am sitting now is warm cos I sat there for too long sometimes without even taking a break.

Come what may, I’ll smile for Allah. No matter what happens I have to smile because senyuman itu sedekah. I hope I can get a GPA of 3! InsyaAllah boleh. I already blajar, dah doa and the next thing I’ll do is tawakal.

Hmm, what else. ouh yea, Fareez. I do miss him.. a lot, miss texting him. But now, he has got no time for me. Now, no one message me like how Fareez message me before. No one. Maybe to him, I am already gone. Its fine. I don’t hate him for that. I seriously don’t. All my life, I’ve never and will never hate a person no matter what he or she did to me. I’m a forgiving person as always. As for now, I don’t want to entertain any guys unless that guy is my friend as I believe that “whatever’s meant to be will work out perfectly.”

So, come what may, I’ll still smile maybe not being true to myself but for others I’ll smile =) I’ll just live my life.

k enough enough enough. Now back to studying.

Natasha — Wed, 10 Feb 2010 14:09:13 +0000

Eyes Off Guys.

Its as simple as that.

I saw one I look down.

I saw groups I look away.

I saw couples holding hands and what not, I ‘ergh! whatever..you wont last.’ so please stop acting’ and look away disgustedly.

Natasha — Wed, 10 Feb 2010 09:08:09 +0000

Its okay, I leave it to Allah.

Allah Maha Besar. Allah Maha mengetahui and most importantly Allah Maha Adil.

Natasha — Mon, 08 Feb 2010 15:07:51 +0000

Maybe it only applies to me: Ignore If I am wrong.

I learnt not to be close to any guy. When I get a close to a guy, somehow, sooner or later, i will like the guy. When theres some kind of bonding there, love will interrupt. When feelings grow more and more, I cant afford to lose the love that I’ve found.Yea, like how i knew Zai and Fareez. However when they left me, they’re well known as a heartbreaker, But of course, I will never blame them. I’m too soft hearted that I can’t afford to blame and be angry with them because I love them like how I used to. But, now. Fareez is unsure if he still like me or not. So I have no idea what to do. Yea, like how i knew Zai and Fareez.

Natasha — Thu, 04 Feb 2010 10:35:49 +0000

Staying alive is exhausting

Natasha — Thu, 04 Feb 2010 10:27:51 +0000

Nobody misses you until You’re gone for good

Natasha — Thu, 04 Feb 2010 08:38:41 +0000

I hate myself. Don’t bother asking me why.