what a life!

i seriously hate my life. some people are having their good times out there. when will this end ergghh!!! life sucks for me.i feel like going away. Get away from here. I want to go missing and be out of this world. I feel like crying these days.

I know i can’t get away from my sucky life. I’ll just have to face it. If only I’m a millionare NOW, I’d be gone for sure. I’ll go somewhere very very far secretly without my family’s acknowledgment and I mean it. I mean I just need a break from all these. I need to calm my mind, repair my feelings, my own self, reflect what have I done. Here, in a hectic and busy environment, I can’t reflect a single thing about what I’ve done in my life and to my life. I want to stop whatever I’m doing now. I need some time for my own self to search my real and true self. I really need it. I need self discovery. Sometimes I am not myself. This is weird, i know. Sometimes, I don’t love myself. And how do i expect someone else to love me when I don’t even love myself. I need myself now. I think , I need myself now and not anyone else.

I need just myself to be somewhere at the far side of the world. I want to get away from here. I’m tired.